Realizing I have it;
Getting cramps;
Someone pisses me off;
Someone tells me a joke;
I’m sitting in class all;
I’m craving food all;
My parents tell me to do something;
Going to bed;
Waking up, and seeing blood in my underwear;
Realizing it’s finally over;
Realizing It’s coming back in a month;
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You are Beautiful by Sarah Moore“You want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family hates you, right? No. Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They’ll try their hardest to not think negative and to think you’re just fooling around….
Fuck y’all.
I’m sick to death of pretending to be sweet and encourage people that “everything will be okay.” Heres the truth dickheads, no, its NOT going to be okay. If you keep whining about things every single day to everybody, looking miserable and like someone just died and walking around ignoring people who don’t immediately jump up and say “oh my god, are you okay?” and if you post a facebook status every 5 minutes saying “why wont you talk to me” or “i cant believe you did this too me,” it won’t be okay. Your gonna drive EVERYBODY away eventually, and I am speaking from experience. I’m not saying you can’t be upset, or you can’t have days that your down, and I am certainly not saying you gotta keep it in.. but there are ways to deal with this guys.
A. Close friends are AMAZING people, you can talk to them and cry until you throw up around them. You can call them, email them, skype them, inbox them. They are great, they will support you in everything and tell you that it’s okay. Do what it takes to make you okay. They are honestly the best therapy, and they will take your crap. But make sure you smile and laugh with them at times as well, and if they need help, be there for them too.
B. Facebook is not a physchologist. It doesn’t know why the “un named” person your posting about won’t talk to you. It doesn’t know why your life sucks. And the people on there will start to block you if all you do is complain about “un named” people. If your so lost that you need to go to facebook, maybe try the kids help line 1800 55 1800, or see a physchologist, or a life coach, or even your gp can run scans to see if theres something seriously wrong. Kids help line also offers online councelling from about 4 in the afternoon till 6 in the evening, if you prefer to be confidential or aren’t confident talking about your problems on the phone.
C. It’s okay to cry. Cry it out until your so exhausted you either have to sleep or have a shower or bath. It helps, and it won’t drive people away. If the crying gets too much you can always phone up a friend to talk to until you calm down.
D. Life can suck, yes, I totally agree. And feelings of hopelessness and depression are REAL, but if you constantly let it get the better of you, sooner or later life won’t seem worth it. If you let it drain you and don’t get help, soon, nobody will be ABLE to help you. Being a ghost walking the streets, or corridoors, or your house isn’t helping anyone. Especially you. Your isolating yourself, and honestly, nobody wants to be around someone who doesn’t even wanna smile. Find someone you enjoy, stop making excuses why you can’t enjoy yourself. Honestly, even if you gotta break some rules, smile for once and people will smile with you. It’ll make you feel better, and it’ll stop people from being driven away.
Look, guys. I get it, I have depression and feel totally helpless and lost sometimes too. But it’s not worth losing everything and everyone over. Have a serious think before you feel so sorry for yourself that you won’t even look someone in the eyes because your so sad. It’s gonna be okay, I promise. And I’m willing to be a close friend to anybody who needs someone to talk to, but you gotta smile and laugh at in jokes and stupid shit with me too. Life isn’t all serious, I hope that sinks in with people, because it’s not worth closing yourself up and losing touch with what life can truly be.
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